Crazzzyyy times in Falmouth.
It's been a mental few weeks, for myself at least.
So much going on in my head, so many feelings buzzing around!
It's all pretty clear and calm now I think...

Things have settled.
Things have been put straight.
Things have cleared up.
Things have been dismissed.
I can atleast quit the worrying!
I get too stressed out over little things.

I've been feeling really ill the past few days,
But I have been relieved of any worries.
I just feel sick constantly and I'm not sleeping well at all.
The past 3 days I have been up until 7am,
I see light outside and hear the seagulls wake up before I sleep!
But I'm feeling better and am sleeping all day to make up for it,
My sleeping pattern will sort out when I go home!

Handed in all of my uni work, Portfolio One finished!
Check http://charliederry.blogspot.com/ for all my article uploads!
I now have no real work to do and don't have to go to uni,
So Christmas holidays have pretty much started!!! :)

I'm really excited to go home!!
Can't wait to see family and friends!
Especially my little brother and sister,
And fun nights out with my best friends who I've needed the past few weeks!
And then to finally feel Christmassy!
With a tree at home and all my family round on Christmas day! :)
But I'm going to miss here so much,
It's only 2 weeks but I know I'll be looking forward to seeing everyone again!

There's only one thing worth complaining about anymore,
Or atleast maybe not to complain, just to want.
Just something I'm missing and can't wait to sort out.
Nights are pretty hard around here at the minute,
I miss the company, I think maybe another reason for the lack of sleep.
The comfort has gone and my fear of the dark has returned!
I'm going to miss it worse over the holidays.
And hoped to have it waiting for me when I returned,
But none of it is up to me.

There's so much I've wanted to write on here the past few days.
But thinking it pointless and maybe not a good idea incase it was read, I left it all bottled up.
I was put in a really awful situation the other night, one that I had to laugh off.
And all for one reason, which seems insignificant to them.
Have some bad views about me, which non are true.
I've turned into a bit of a sappy loser.
Something I never wanted, yet now I don't want to be without it.
And all I do is moan and plead and make excuses and try to explain.
I'm awful in these situations!
And I'm not one to give up.

Tim has been so amazing at the minute,
Dragging me out of my apartment to stop me being an emotional wreck.
Talking about things with me and giving me something to take my mind off things.
Don't know what I'd of done without him this week!

The Journo boys have also been a good laugh.
Drinks, pool, X box and 'banter'
Been some good nights.
Ohh there was Journalism Christmas party and Snowball too!
They've been brilliant.

Can't be bothered to go into detail about anything.
I've had an amazing few weeks whilst out with people.
But it's possibly been the worst few weeks whilst alone in my apartment.
And I guess that's why my head is so messy.
But as I said, pretty much sorted now.
This was just a quick rant as I'm not tired yet :/
Going to finish reading Harry Potter anyway, it's been exciting! Only a chapter left!

Goodnight x